the day i almost fell in love with another boy

It all started one night that was never supposed to happen

He said "Hi" first and from there things went uneven

He asked for my number and it was given

 

We stayed up until two texting about life

He told me he was depressed and I told him to fight

I went to sleep hoping what I did was right

 

I woke up that morning and the messages on my phone read two

I opened his first and it read "I'm alive for you"

I was insane and the lies I told myself were not true

 

I was in wonderland and not thinking clearly

My heart went out to his pain and reminded himself of me

He was brand new and nothing less than exciting

 

I started to use him as leverage and I felt things I should not have

I justified it with my righteousness and knew I was walking on broken glass

But it was the moment you looked me in the eye I relapsed 

 

The day I almost fell in love with another boy

Was the day I realized I was destroyed

I went back to using boys as my play toy

M.A.A