The way things should be

I feel so alone this morning
But that loneliness makes me write more words to you.

I placed my plans into a mans hands
only to discover he wasn't a man from the beginning.

But there is still time I suppose
as long as I don't let the what ifs take over.

I can only laugh as much as my mother lets me
But who's fault is that really.

I blame my life on everyone else.

And that's because
Things never turn out the way I think they should be.

M.A.A

Dancing

if you ever regret loving me remember that I loved you first without thinking you would ever kiss my lips.


and that maybe in 7 years none of your skin will remember mine but my god your soul will cry out for me in the night.

remember I won' be there to comfort it.


i bet you'll wear that scarf i made you for your birthday and tell your friends that you bought it,
because you can't bear to see something I made be thrown away

to bad you'll never see me make our children then

if you ever leave me remember what life was like without me


who are you going to call when you are mad at the world,
who are you going to love when the stars dance.

because i'll be dancing with them.


m.a.a

No Longer a Savior

I'm picking up pieces of my heart from the floor

You want to help but stepping closer will just crush the pieces smaller

I never thought you would be the problem yet i never needed you more

You just stand there watching  

 

You can only say sorry so many times before it no longer is a savior   

I wonder what she is thinking right now

I've never seen you look at me that way before

I'm not sure if its good or bad..

Or just another broken heart hitting the ground

 

M.a.a 

Spontaneous

I feel like my life isnt where I want it to be

I have a checklist of things I'm supposed to do and I cross them off as the others appear

But I want to break free.

I want to write my own things on the list
I want to be spontaneous 

Let's jump on a train and run run run away
And we can kiss until we cant remember our names
I'll meet you at the court house and marry you today

M.a.a.

Smartest

They say that the smartest people are most depressed and that's the saddest thing.

That the more you understand the world the more you want to leave.

M.a.a 

Broken People

Us broken people have the urge to mend anything around us broken

But a broken person can only put someone else back together as much as they are whole.

You need to fix yourself before you can truly help others

Believe me I would know

It's better to break her heart then ruin her soul

M.a.a

Truth

Delicately shuffled words
Made to throw the truth away.

There is nothing you can say or do
To make me turn the other way.

I would rather be destroyed by the truth then lied to and led astray .

M.a.a.