Remember

i ache for words that will break my heart

because if the knife is already plundged
into me then why not let yourself feel the pain

if we were made to love and hate then empty threats mean nothing

i skake with anger because I want to forget
but all i do is remember

m.a.a

Loose Change

I'm sitting all alone right next to you

Questioning if my thoughts are just like loose change

Not even enough to think twice about
Yet rattling as to always remind you

A penny for my thoughts is meaningless

Making me wonder if my mind means anything to the world

If they mean nothing to you

m.a.a

Homesick

I'm homesick for a person not a place

Not a time on a clock but a face

He who is infatuated with me while our hearts race

My mind rains tears and my heart has slowed to a steady pace

I feel empty without him like a Vacant Flower vase

The memory of him leaving and returning with his green suitcase

If you drew my blood in every vein you would find his trace

I'm homesick for a person not a place

And all my lips long for is his taste

m.a.a

Dusty

He Loved me for a little while before he decided he was done with me

He set me aside like an old book on a bookshelf wishing its spine wasn't so dusty

m.a.a

Thrill

My mind wanders to the many different eyes it would have been
And snap on one that very much should have happened.

But i keep my eyes closed and my mouth open.
Don't think so much i reprimand myself,

You'll destroy yourself in the process
But i really cant help it. 

I wonder as my thoughts think about the what ifs and should haves if they really did happen.
But maybe i'm a dreamer and i chose the wrong answer.

And i'll never know what would have happened if only i'd kissed him.
I should have kissed him..

I wish i was more reckless and yet said no when i wanted,
I've tried to rewind the clock but only have managed to pause it.

I'm stuck on the thought of the thrill of a different life
Or maybe just the idea that revolves around it.

m.a.a

Questions

 -There are so many things I never realized I wanted-

-Like traveling the world so I might not be forgotten -

-Time keeps me in its grasp
it's freedom being flaunted-

-If only there was a way that this life could be confronted-

-A coffee mug in hand and a notebook in the other, my view of things would still be distorted-

-Even if I had all the time in the world
so many questions would be left unresponded-

-M.a.a-

Better Than

In the moment of silence between a butterflies wings in motion 

In the space between the seconds that we don't speak of

Maybe there is something much better then this broken love 

We all hate change even though we know there might be things better above

 
Fear is the one holding you and somehow that is better than being free and yet alone

M.a.a